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A moment of Gratitude. It's New Year's time, at least in this part of the world. While I never fully engaged in the promises and commitments for the following year, it is unavoidable to look back at the past 12 months. For the first time since we are together, my husband and I are spending the last night of the year at home. It's just us and the fireplace. We are not going to exotic places or where the weather is the opposite from here. We love to travel and explore new places while taking advantage of a less hectic rhythm at work. This time, being pregnant, that wasn't really an option and we couldn't be happier about it. It means there's a baby coming and we are actually experiencing the cosy environment of a home, a family home. As I write, he's preparing a delicious meal. He has been researching and preparing for it with great care and excitement. Now, he's putting it to the test and he seems to be loving it. With such dedication, I doubt this could turn out anything but an amazing meal - he's not so sure, though 🙂 I am also glancing at the pictures of some of the highlights of the year: our marriage, the celebration with the family, the different trips, the moment we found out we were expecting a baby... it was a great year. An incredible year. I've also left work and stepped into the unknown, trusting that my husband and I can build the life we both dream of. It's been an adventure, confusing and exciting; sometimes vertigo inducing. So...
Week 26 – Bowling Pin
Adapting Non stop changes "If there's no awareness that there is more beyond this awesome cocoon, is the cocoon making all of it happen?" Another week, and I've been adapting a lot to a new reality. The belly keeps growing, not tremendously this week, and the baby is active and kicking around at will. I've been talking to him a bit more, it feels a bit funny but it's quite nice overall. In the meantime, the baby is underwater. It must be quite a spectacular experience to be in a small, warm and cosy place and yet get these sounds, lights and other sensations coming from... where? If there's no awareness that there is more beyond this awesome cocoon, is the cocoon making all of it happen? It's hard to imagine but somehow I have the feeling it must be amazing for the baby. I'm slowly getting used to the idea of tracking what I'm eating and the blood sugar levels many times a day. All of this because I failed the Glucose Tolerance Test. I'm not a big fan of needles, though. Next week, we'll know more but so far the results are good. I am still naively hoping the doctor will say it was a false positive and everything is fine. Either way, it's going to be okay. Given the Christmas season, the diet will not be as lean but there will be more data to analyse. Christmas will be different this year. My husband and I will be at home with the baby. This is so different from all the travelling we did in...
Week 25 – Baseball Glove
There’s a feeling of impotence and doubt to process before moving on.
Week 24 – Eggplant
…my body has been performing all of this amazing work and it feels like there’s little that I can do at the moment to help it.
A is for awesome
It seemed to shine and reflect the sunlight. I kid you not; it was like those scenes in the movies, where the light and the mood is just right. It was awesome.
Week 23 – Grapes
I remember being very young, maybe three or four years old, and being on the country side with my great grandmother. It is the only memory I have of her and possibly the only time we were together. The smell was delicious, the sun was nice and warm. And she was wearing black, leaning forward with a very curved back. As a little kid, it felt like she was curling forward to be closer to my height. We were in her vineyard and we started picking up grapes. She had a lot of energy and was super quick dealing with the grapes and leaves, smoothly filling one basket after another. She tried to tell me how to do it: don't pull the bunch of grapes but rather hold the stem tightly and then break it sharply so you free it up in your hand. I never did it again but the memory stayed and it still provides comfort and warmth. Our baby boy is now the size of a bunch of grapes and is moving more and more. I like to believe that he is now interacting with us, with stimuli from the outside world. I wonder which memories will we create and which ones will, for some random reason, stay with him forever. Will he remember those carefully crafted and prepared moments or something that we didn't even notice was happening? Probably a bit of both. Will my husband and I ever notice these memories being created on the spot and realise that, long after we are gone, he will remember certain things as clearly as if they had just happened?...
Week 22 – Corn!
I finally decided to postpone the Pilates certification. Ah, it is hard to put things on hold, miss expectations and put things you like in a "later" box. Still, the moment the decision was made and shared there was a huge relief, a sense of weight off my shoulders. The additional stress is down, and suddenly I feel super tired, sleepy and relaxed. My body got the message that it can chill for a moment. I slept so well these last few nights that the mood goes up the roof. Of course, I'll continue to practice and study Pilates - but without the pressure of hitting certain milestones before the baby comes. It will be good for both of us to stay active but not try and push through artificial deadlines. Besides, I already have the Coaching certification to be accomplished in January. As the belly grows - and it sure is growing! - And the big day approaches, the reality sinks in more and more and I want to enjoy it. It feels so incredible that a boy is growing inside me and starting to interact with the world around him. My husband can now easily feel the moves and kicks, and it's incredible to see them "together". Definitely, a great week so far and the weekend was beautiful, with fireplace, relaxing, good food and company, and with the Christmas spirit starting to creep in...
Week 21 – Weasel
The boy is big! Over 26 cms, moving around non stop when awake and then going back to sleep. He is just adorable and I can't wait to meet him 🙂 My husband was travelling for most of the week and there was plenty to do about the move, paperwork, coaching certification, etc.. On top of that, a lot to do and decide regarding Pilates, which has been quite draining. All and all, I've been quite tired and I am not too happy about it. There are no big problems, just a lot of things biting at my peace of my mind and pulling the stress a bit up. It adds up and I ended up feeling quite meh and just wanting to be left alone, imagining being somewhere warm with my bare feet on the sand, smelling the salty water and hearing the ocean waves breaking nearby. I would, of course, be having a magic ice cream with no calories or sugar; just delicious nutrients for my boy. Down here on earth, however, things remained tense. I then talked to my man, once he was back. He was so tired and somehow he managed to be really present and kiss the anxiety away. How he does that, I have no idea. I am so fortunate. Bit by bit, things are progressing but I really want to be less tense; it's not good for anyone. I've resumed meditation and made a point of not studying theory for Pilates (Anatomy and what not) nor unpacking much this week. That should help a little. I also need to start filtering better what...
Week 20 – Paper Plane
I had a cold this week and it was quite deflating. After a strong active period last week, the momentum was gone and the energy drained away.
Week 19 – Hedgehog
What a week! Everything at once A spiky week A trip to London, 5h Pilates workouts, a final certification exam, hitting my face against a wall, my dad’s visit and catching a cold – it was a fully packed week. This was a packed week: I had a trip to London, with 5 hour long Pilates workouts. I also went through a final certification exam. To top things up, I hit my face against a wall, my dad came to visit and I caught a cold. It was intense, exhausting and I learned a lot. It was great to finally get the Psychometrics certification. This enables me to use a whole set of valuable Personality and Ability tools in coaching. I'm quite excited about this. The Pilates training was also very good. There were several long workouts pushing me hard. On top of it all, I got to observe an outstanding instructor working on her clients. I was fortunate enough to stay at her home, enjoy her family hospitality and delicious food. It was quite generous of her and I learned a lot this week. Spikes With all this, the change of weather and sleep deprivation, I ended up catching a persistent cold. My husband caught it as well so now we are both quite tired. We are trying not to feel overwhelmed by everything we still need to sort out after we moved to this new wonderful home. My dad also came for the weekend - it was the first time we meet since he learned I was pregnant and that I am not working....
Week 18 – Slingshot
The baby is the size of a slingshot Growing in all areas Moving forwards "How much can we share of all the noises, movements, feelings and thoughts that I am experiencing now?" Growing and Moving It has been a very busy week, filled with an overall feeling of positive change. The baby keeps growing and all seems to be going very well. He is moving a lot, which feels amazing, and I am having a bit more energy during the day. Feeling the baby move seems to be motivating and uplifting, somehow. This increase in energy is very much welcome. It will be needed as we are moving to a new home. It's going to be a new beginning and nest for our family. It's wonderful to imagine the boy running around the house, growing healthy and strong. There's also a growing feeling of nurture, nesting and humility inside me. I just want to give this baby everything he needs to grow and become a healthy and authentic person. Time machine As I walk outside and see children of different ages, it feels like I'm in a time machine. Basically, I am looking at the same essence in different points in life. Our boy is already in one of those phases, even if a very early one. But looking at toddler, pre-teens, teens... they have all been babies in their diapers. And, if all goes well, they will all move on to the next phase, taking the baton of the new step in life. Everyone we ever met and never saw, was once like our baby...
Concentrated Happiness
We have a new home, a beautiful home and it's just unbelievable how great this phase in life is. We spent the weekend packing and unpacking, dealing with little time and tiredness but in the end it was actually quite a lot of fun. The new home is beautiful and we are now discovering bits and pieces at each moment. There's a lot to process and assimilate and I have caught myself a few times just looking out at the garden (because now there's one!), without moving for a long time, while feeling like I'm doing a million things at the same time. It's fascinating. Our baby will, hopefully, grow up here; this is a home, a real home. Apart from that, there was a lot at work for my husband. I tried to help a bit, which was exciting because it was related to topics that I care about and enjoy thinking about. We get along very well, although it did get stressful at times. A lot to do, in very little time. Then again, we do enjoy the last minute adrenaline. With all this, there has been little time to prepare for next week, when I'll be travelling to the UK for an intense training for the Pilates apprenticeship and to take the final exam for the Psychometrics Certification. Both should be really good and I'm looking forwards to it. However, we just moved in and it doesn't feel good to leave my husband behind, with all the boxes and furniture lying around. On top of that, the energy levels could be higher and I wonder if...
Week 17 – Chipmunk
Baby is the size of a chipmunk Can't eat enough nuts for this Fast Progress, Slow Fuel "The feeling in the belly changes every day, becoming closer to what I imagine the kicks will feel like." 17 weeks already, things are going rather quickly and smoothly. The main symptoms at the moment are dizziness and headaches, which come and go. It looks like I need more protein and I'm not sure how to get the recommended 70+ gr per day - it's a lot! I'm considering protein supplements but, of course, the debate amongst parents is high. Some of the options seem very natural, with no added creepy substances. So, this might be a way to do it without eating multiples steaks and beans every day. The baby is growing. The feeling in the belly changes every day, becoming closer to what I imagine the kicks will feel like. Meanwhile, we are making progress with the preparations for the baby. We are getting clothes, information and what not. Picking a name is tough but we have a good front runner. We might still change our minds a few times, though, until we finally meet our boy 🙂 We have been receiving plenty of advice on what to do, not to do and how to do it. It is a wonderful sign of care so it's been mostly endearing so far, even when not particularly useful. Pilates has been helping quite a lot. Although the last few days my arms were super sore. It can be quite challenging sometimes. Still, it is being super beneficial...
Week 16 – Action Figure
Baby is the size of an Action Figure Feeling and Mood Swings What am I feeling? "On top of it, it is clear the rest of the world is not getting it; obviously, a pregnant woman is just a woman with a baby bump who gets an excuse to eat ice cream whenever she wants.." The baby is doing great, growing and moving around quite often. It is quite a unique feeling to sense him and an ongoing source of surprise smiles. The belly is getting big and beautiful. The boy is now the size of an action figure or 10 cm. Apart from it, I’m sleeping a lot – as in, over 10 hours each night during the weekend plus a nap or two. I have the feeling that’s how much I would sleep every night. But the routines and family rhythms that get us out of bed give a different speed to the day. Ranting I’ve been getting annoyed and emotional these last few days. This is something that I was hoping was more of a first-trimester thing, according to the extensive babble online. I get to worry and cry as I see a movie where one of the parents dies and the other needs to move on, raising the children alone. I get to feel disheartened at a less than enthusiastic preference for my proposed dinner options. And, of course, I get to wonder if the half a kilo I put on last week was due to the Italian dinner or due to the pregnancy. Ranting starts. On top of it, it is clear...
Week 15 – Avocado
The Baby is the size of an avocado Started feeling him move He is Moving! "He is not sure if he really felt it or if it was wishful thinking but we are both super excited. It makes it even more real.." The baby is moving - I can feel it and it's awesome. It's not kicking yet but more of a sense of swimming against the walls of the placenta. It's such a wonderful feeling it's hard to describe. There's clearly a person inside me and he's making space and exploring his world. My husband felt it too, after a couple of attempts. He is not sure if he really felt it or if it was wishful thinking but we are both super excited. It makes it even more real. The belly keeps growing and getting more compact. It's still not clearly visible under the clothes but it's there 🙂 We had another appointment at the gynaecologist and saw the baby. It seems like everything is going very well, he was moving around and having hiccups. You could see the heart becoming more differentiated, with two heart chambers popping up on the screen. He's awesome and I think he's enjoying his time in the pool. The doctor confirmed the iron levels keep decreasing. This means it is now time to start taking an iron supplement. This explains why I've been so tired. On one hand, I hope this won't make my digestion even slower. On the other, if that will give me enough fuel for the day, then I'm all in. Let's see. This...
Week 14 – Troll!
Second Trimester Energy and Confusion Second Trimester - Yuppie! "Looking at pictures is just a perfect recipe to laugh, cry, smile and fall asleep." I keep hearing about all the wonder of the second semester: more energy and excitement, loads of drive, no more nausea and other funky symptoms... great, bring it on! Except there hasn't been much of a difference and I'm still quite tired all the time. There's an appointment next week so we'll see if the iron levels are good or if there's something else that could explain this. The belly is changing but still not showing enough for others to see. I like how the body is adapting and the baby is finding his place and warmth to grow. Nature really does find a way to make wonderful things happen. Weird dreams are popping up, not much that I can remember but seem related to the baby. There are ups and downs but I think we'll create a great environment for this child to grow. I'm quite emotional these days. A small comment can make me doubt everything, a song can make me cry and looking at pictures is just a perfect recipe to laugh, cry, smile and fall asleep. I am also second guessing anything: should the baby get a crib or a floor bed? Should I eat this or that? What if I get a cold? I'm also falling off the wagon with meditation which is a pity because it really helps. Here's a commitment to get back on track. Starting now 🙂 Baby is now the size of a troll doll....
Week 13 – Toy Car
Emotional times Trips, Moving, Growing (Emotional) Changes "Is it showing or I am getting fat? Am I tired or getting lazy? Am I hungry or finding excuses for another delicious pear?" The last week of the third trimester. It was a little emotional with a trip to London packed with stress and anxiety. For example, one of the episodes included being evacuated from the hotel I was sleeping at. I was in a training for becoming certified on psychometric and ability tests. This will be very helpful in a coaching context. The training was good although I was very tired and not getting enough time to recharge and be quiet. It reinforced this idea that I need to find a good balance on how I am spending time and energy. I want to be well rested so I can give what the family needs. We started telling friends about the pregnancy. They were very happy and there was a wide range of advice, questions and wishes flowing around. It felt nice 🙂 Body Changes The belly is growing and stretching and it's starting to show. I'm feeling round and big... and self-conscious. Is it showing or I am getting fat? Am I tired or getting lazy? Am I hungry or finding excuses for another delicious pear? I also fell off the waggon and ate a few sweets this week. I need to get back on track but it's tough while on the road, where you don't have much control on what and when to eat. The baby is now the size of a toy car. It...
Week 12 – Brussel Sprouts
The baby is the size of a brussel sprout! Vertigo and changes. It's a boy! "It's official: there’s a baby coming, our family is growing and we’ll be forever changed." The results from the screen test arrived last week and the genetic tests came back normal - yay!!! On top of that, we found out: it is a boy! 🙂 This is truly exciting and now we know our baby a little better. We told our families that we are expecting a baby, that it's a boy and all is going very well. It was fun to see the diversity of reactions. It was a clear representation of the different personalities in the family. They were all happy, though, and it felt great to tell the news and feel all the excitement from everyone. Now they know and can share the moment and anticipation for the arrival of the new boy. We started to make the first purchases, such as a baby carrier and a stroller. It's official: there's a baby coming, our family is growing and we'll be forever changed. I can't wait to meet our boy. The symptoms are improving but I'm still very tired. Also, the belly is getting even more compact and it's starting to show although maybe it's just my eyes. The weight is still the same, though. I had a trip last week and we will be travelling again for a few days so now I'm trying to rest as much as possible. I also restarted eating healthy, homemade meals, which has a big impact on mood and energy....